Sea Green, Sea Blue

"I miss winter just because I miss when I knew you best.
I miss the typewriter in the basement, I miss making your room a mess.
I miss not being misused. I miss it all so I guess I lose
Sea green, Sea blue..."

I met the most amazing person and I ruined it and I assumed that it would get easier every day but every day I miss him more and every day i realise that nobody comes close.

I miss him washing my dishes and waiting in his car for me after work and calling me 'nugget' when I say something stupid. I miss glimpsing the gaps in his teeth when he smiles and his arms creeping around me while I cook. I miss him turning up late at night with his drunken swagger and the smell of rum on his breath. I miss his chicken legs and the flat bone beneath his ribs that he hated me touching and I miss the creases around his eyes when he awakes. I miss the noises he makes in his sleep and I miss being late to work every morning because I couldn't ever leave him.

He met someone else, he says, and I can't imagine anyone who might deserve him more.
But I ruined it, all by myself.
And now I can only wait and hope that one day, like he said, it will be OK.

Pocketful of Money

"I can't say that you are pretty
that would make me a liar
but you turn my my legs to spaghetti
and set my heart on fire"

More Jens. This is the most amazing song ever. Yes it is.

Young Pilgrims

"Fate isn't what we're up against,
There's no design, your flaws are fine"

The Shins


Just lovely.

And I remember every kiss

"I swear I'll never kiss anyone/ Who doesn't burn me like the sun"
Jens Lekman.

We love Jens.Here's a little story for you...So I was seeing this pretty decent guy and all was rather lovely until I got very drunk and acted like a cock and he quite rightly decided I was a nutjob and ended it. I was gutted for quite a while, so as you do, went off and did the usual with one or two less interesting fellows, clearly knowing that it wasn't the most productive behaviour. Then me and aforementioned ex met up again a few months later having literally bumped into each other in the street and had the most immense day, which culminated in him kissing me to this humble tune. Probably made more sense in that moment than a song has ever done. It didn't work out due to me still being a nutjob deep down, but is a self-inflicted rule I've tried to abide by since (unfortunately with limited success, usually due to excessive cider intake) Did I mention thatt it's also the most frickin epic of songs. LISTEN TO JENS.
xx

December

"December came faster than most and before we knew it, it was cold
and you turned to me as if to say that we should not have come this way.
You didn't ask a question, so I had no reply.
And we came upon a congregation and turned our faces to the constellation, singing
'we are both believers now' but still there was no voice in the clouds.
See the stars are not out conscience, they are just another light in our eyes, in our eyes.
They are just another light keeping us blind.
Long time I have left Umeah and long time travlled in your company,
but I see the road before us split, and I know that I should follow it.
But I know that I will find you, when the morning spreads it's breath across the night.
Find you, in the morning at the end of my life.
December's roads are long and they're tough and sometimes I get really tired and stuck
But I keep the thought that when I die
They will carry me and lay me by your side
They will carry me and lay me by your side.
And there amongst the dirt
At last, our roads again will merge."

This song is called 'the woods' and is by Emmy the Great. I have listened to it at least 1000 times and it still makes me want to cry, in a good way. The first time I heard it was last winter when I had moved home from uni and split up with my boyfriend of a very long time (by my standards anyway) and everything was very bleak. Everything is less bleak now but I'm still listening to it and it never seems to lose it's relevance. You should probably listen to it too because emmy really is great.